My mother has a certain spirit guide who likes to "walk in" once in a while and take an earth body to try to catch up with her. One day when I was a baby my mom was walking me when her guide came up to her in a new body and said, "Oh, do you know who she is?" and he whispered to her of my Alcott existence. Now my mother thought she would play detective throughout my childhood to see if I would figure it out for myself.
Thus, I had a childhood very different from most people where the concept of reincarnation was accepted as being perfectly natural. My mother had several lifetimes as famous folk herself that had been verified through hypnosis, though her memories still come up unbidden and trip her out. Notably, she was raised very differently from my brother and me as her parents were very Christian and thought she was probably crazy. It makes an amazing difference in one's ability to remember past lives if you're raised in an environment where it's not seen as strange, it also makes a marvelous difference in your ability to cope with those memories. To this day my mother and I talk about our past lives just as naturally as if we were talking about our current one.
Anyway, Mama's trick was to give me several of Louisa's novels as a Christmas present one year. Just as she suspected, I could barely be cajoled to open them, when usually I was quick to devour any book that came my way, and it took me a couple years to get around to reading them. It took me three years to finish reading Little Women, and once I finished it (I don't know why I bothered to finish it) I didn't like it. I didn't like any of her novels, which by itself is flimsy evidence, but now whenever I read her books I keep thinking of ways to improve them. As a child I had a curious habit of constantly creating and acting out stories, often I would even create whole books complete with illustrations. I had a chart hanging in my bedroom to dictate which story I would "act out" on every day of the week. Furthermore, I had an odd habit of composing whole stories, word for word, in my head before I wrote them down. Now, I've never met anyone who does this, but apparently Louisa May Alcott did! I also had a curious habit of editing my own diary entries. If I thought something was unsavory I would erase it later. I guess most people don't do this, but Louisa did it ad nauseum much to the frustration of scholars. For some reason I always write my journals with the assumption that they will end up being read one day by complete strangers.
When I was 14 I regressed myself back to the year 1856 to see what I would find. I found myself sitting by a fireplace staring broodingly into it wearing an uncharacteristically cheerful piece of calico, a white dress with little blue flowers on it which didn't suit me whatsoever. My "mother" was sitting behind me knitting and said, "What's wrong, Louisa? Are you depressed?" I replied, "I'm a writer, I'm supposed to be depressed!" Mother just shook her head and said, "You are a strange girl, Louisa."
I wrote this down in my journal, noted it as odd, but didn't tell my mother for a few months. When I told her I had figured it out, tears rolled down my cheeks and I don't know why, perhaps it was just the feeling of release from my subconscious secret. She verified what I already knew and admitted to her tricks. Then it came out that my brother was Bronson, my former life father, which makes perfect sense. Throughout our childhood we would sit up for hours at night talking about philosophy, especially philosophy of education discussing the many ills we saw in our current system. He even looks like Bronson. I don't really look like Louisa much.
Strangely, I pretty much left it at that and never bothered with another regression or even with reading a biography until about 16 years later. I felt it was a life well lived and didn't think there was much purpose to dredging it up. Last year I quit my job and had no idea what to do with my life, so I started looking to where I "left off" more and more for a clue. I found a double biography that just came out on the lives of Bronson and Louisa and the effect they had on eachother. Now, this was a biography I wanted to read! Mainly because I was more curious as to how my brother's karma worked with mine. I couldn't believe how much made sense after reading it! Now I understand what I need to work through and what hang-ups I've brought to this life. I understand where my fear of wealth and success comes from and why I was born tired.....so tired.
I'll tell my Cavalieri story in another thread. I just haven't gotten to tell the Louisa story to anyone outside my closest friends and family, so I'm really excited to finally do it! I must say that knowing about two successive lifetimes is incredibly informative and helps tremendously in knowing why you are the way you are, and why you need to change the ways you think. I just hope that in my next lifetime I can remember this one. I guess I'll have to ensure my fame in this one in order to have a chance of remembering it later.