peter Sun Sep 27, 2009 7:33 pm
I think that sounds *incredibly* sweet and romantic. I just love it when things work out for people. The field of love in particular, always seems to have so many left over land-mines scattered promiscuously about.
I think that I envy the clarity of direction you descibe. As I said, I've had a very persistent interest in the field for most of my adult life but when it comes to who I am, I seem to meander around and never know for sure. I just don't have enough memories to make it clear.
Over the years I've spent a great deal of time trying to figure out who I was. After some trial and error fiascos, I gradually worked out a process I call trying people on. As a result, I've been a number of famous people for a while before deciding they weren't likely the real me. It ends up being an educational role playing experience which is certainly worthwhile if not exactly on point.
Naturally, I tend to approach my theories about myself with a big grain of salt. I have a great imagination and a damaged ego so I tend to overly identify myself with hero types. I did it in a big way with Leonardo until I grew disenchanted with him. Then with Reubens, whom I still feel a very strong personal tie to, and etc. The last person I did this to in a big way was Thomas Jefferson. As it turned out, the person I actually recalled being met and admired Jefferson. I've tried on several Victorian Cardinals since then but it hasn't gone beyond educational role playing so far. I simply don't recognize myself in any of the characters I've been researching.
BTW, I appreciate knowing who you were. Coincidentally enough, my "notable" past life was in France at exactly the same time (died 1792 at age 42).
I'm interested in your "flood" of memories. I've never seemed to have any that I could identify as such at all. I'm still wondering why I don't. My intuition tells me it's for good reason, but I'm not too clear on what that is.